I'm away! Not on a CRUISE! But to my Grandma's house whilst everyone and their mother is on the cruise. Oh NO! Don't Pity me, it's only to Cabo. Which is in Mexico! I refuse to throw away my future on MEXICO! Besides Oma's house has a pool and that's just fine with me. Don't you just love her hair color?

"There are certain shades of limelight can ruin a girl's complexion"

Calm.

"It's a hovel, But its Our hovel."

My family sets me off balance. Mom got angry at me today. Ate too much to prove to my Aunt I wasn't on a diet-regret it. My lying keeps me up at night. Me and Bree aren't friends anymore and I don't know how I feel about it. W hasn't messaged me back.





Monotone "Fuck You"
Why?- The Hollows

motherhood in all its cruel reality.

Lately I have been popping peoples bubbles. Well, mainly in my family. Well, my Mom and Grandma. Well, :]

I think it's because I have acted like such a poser at summer school. I never act like myself. A.K.A an awkward intellectual. I giggle and laugh when A. throws shit across the room and that whole laser point-y thing. I actually LIE and pretended I had a boyfriend this year, and that T said I was pretty. Well, I know he thinks I am pretty. [those looks] But he never actually said anything.

But the sad thing is, I DON'T regret it! I decided I would have fun this summer and fuck being honest and prudish. I will lie and do whatever I want.

:]-

Malte

main men

Have I mentioned that I really just don't like old people? Well, I don't. they give me the creeps in between bouts of pity and disgust. They always have food in the corner of their mouths. They are still chock full 0f 50 and 60 ideals. Whenever you try to talk to them they ramble off into a dialogue about their childhood. instead of saying "I had soup for lunch." They go off on a verb rampage as they describe the whole meal and how they felt afterward. They discuss how they didn't want to retire because they felt they would be useless, and how back then, boys didn't like girls to be too smart. and at the end of the lunch and 20 minute car ride, I am grateful to hurry to work. Seriously, I've yet to meet an old person I like.

listening to: The Hot Tramps - Dixie Peach

glazing over peeling plastic
no more]
bitchy dialogue
parting words
glancing friends
then college

summer school sucks

this girl does not!

-ha ha you can see him photographing her

Okay....so it's now officially summer. I should be excited, right? WRONG with a capital W!!!! I just realized I am 16 have no car no friends and my mums at work. Oh well. I will still enjoy this summer as long as weight is lost. I've mentioned that before.

[oh yes and Im getting some chucks for summer wear]

haha I'm blogging at work again! Last day of school today!!!!!! hmm...I don't know why I'm putting all those exclamation points since I feel very blah and tired today. It was not at all exciting or sad. Didn't even feel like it was over.

Today, Grace and I were sitting in front of this church (I had like 3 hours to kill before work) and we were talking. Grace patiently listened while I ranted and fulminated B and the multiple things I dislike about her. Well not that I hate her, I am just tired of her and how she is changing lately. I must say she is not responding well to this[B].

Grace said that people generally expect pretty people to act a certain way[friendly, dumb,slutty] and I don't fulfill their expectations at all [quiet, arrogant,reads a lot] and that it makes them uncomfortable. People hate what they don't understand. We actually had a long conversation [3 hours long] and mainly about me.

Whoever reads this blog still doesn't know me very well. Maybe reading my old blog will help you understand what a nerd I am. [here!!!] yeahhhh. I quit because it as a hassle and I read too many books and I never reviewed them. This blog is easier because I can write whatever I want.

she looks like how I want to look.

elinkan is very adorable and swedish.

tip of the iceberg

I apologize to you blog. I have a rule that I can't go on the computer on weekdays unless it is for school, so I cannot post anything. And I'm allowed on the weekend but I'm always at work and in a foul mood. So just wait for the summer where I can blog once a week...actually...I'm working all summer and will probably still be in a foul and exhausted mood all the time. *groan. But as long as I lose 15lbs I will be satisfied with this summer.

Died last night of enVy

Stuff I Like.

GARR! My music taste is changing or something.

look: I used to listen to Pela, Coconut Records, Voxtrot and Rufus Wainwright.

Now I listen to: The Vines [no seriously, the song Get Free is good, that music video was uggh I mean I know the lead singer is actually a bit "off" in real life but I can't excuse those facial expressions and how dumb he looks] Bikini Kill and The Hot Tramps.

So now I am dissatisfied with my iPod. I need new songs that fit my new taste. Any help? What is this genre called? Is it still alternative.

I hate old people! I hate old people! I hate old people!
anyways, 3 DAYS LEFT!

woo!

Finished my essay. Now enjoi these beautiful pictures from iro-iro. I wish all stores did this: examples of how to wear their clothes.

still at work-still bored

what i'm listening to: (no order)

1. throw me the statue- lolita

2. Spiritualized- soul on fire
3. The Vines- get free
[couldn't find it without the vid. sorry]

4. Pela- good foot on a bad doorstep
5. the pastels- nothing to be done
[ya already heard it here]
6. the ting tings- great dj

7. vampire weekend- walcott (remix)

so yeah...basically I love (most) everything KEXP puts out

8 more days!

To Do List:

1. finish hormones essay
2. WORKS CITED
3. Spanish notebook - copy from Taylor.
4. Constitution- copy from somebody
5. Find Joy luck club
6. Get Les Miserables
7. write speech!!!!!!!
8. Do European Union project- due Tuesday!!!
9. put textbooks in bag!!! don't forget!!!
10. exercise!!! no pigging out!

10 reasons why I am not suitable for any kind of receptionist work:

1. I am anti-social
2. I hate taking orders from people [esp. if I think their idiots or I don't respect them]
3. I like to read
4. I hate talking to idiots
5. I come off as arrogant/bitchy
6. I really really dont like old people
7. I have a 13 year olds face
8. I'm lazy and bull shit EVERYTHING
9. Only do things well, if I like what I'm doing
10. I procrastinate

haha I'm doing this at work.